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Stepping Out of the Cocoon: My Journey Through Solitude, Loss, and Awakening

For those who have followed my journey, you may have noticed my absence from social media since 2023. This pause was not due to burnout or a loss of passion. Instead, it was a profound inner process shaped by spiritual and astrological cycles unfolding in real time. Today, I want to share what happened during this time, what I learned, and how I am stepping into a new chapter with clarity and purpose.


Eye-level view of a quiet forest path surrounded by autumn leaves
solitude and inner reflection

The Call to Retreat: Understanding the Scorpio Progression


Astrology often mirrors our inner landscape. For me, the movement of my progressed Moon joining my already progressed Sun, Venus, Mercury, and Midheaven into Scorpio marked a significant turning point. Scorpio is my 12th whole sign house, a place of quiet reflection, healing, and transformation.


This phase asked me to step back from the world’s noise and turn inward. Scorpio energy is intense and deeply transformative. It invites us to shed old layers, face hidden truths, and prepare for rebirth. This was not a time for visibility or outward achievement but for listening, healing, and rebuilding from the soul outward.


The Scorpio progression felt like a call to retreat into a cocoon, a necessary pause to process what had been accumulating beneath the surface. It was a time to embrace solitude and trust the slow, often uncomfortable work of inner change.


Life’s Challenges as Catalysts for Growth


During this retreat, life presented several challenges that pulled me deeper into myself:


  • Breakups that reshaped my understanding of love and boundaries

These endings were painful but clarified what I truly need in relationships. They taught me to honor my limits and to love myself first.


  • Cross-country moves that uprooted my physical and emotional foundation

Moving far from familiar places forced me to confront uncertainty and build resilience. Each new environment became a mirror reflecting my inner shifts.


  • Personal loss that demanded grief and acceptance

Facing loss brought profound sorrow but also opened space for compassion and deeper connection to life’s fragility.


Each experience was a catalyst, encouraging me to rewrite my story and rebuild my foundation with intention and soulfulness. These moments were painful but necessary for the transformation I was undergoing.


What I Learned in the Silence


This time of retreat taught me several important lessons:


  • Healing is not linear

Progress comes in waves. Some days felt like breakthroughs, others like setbacks. Both were part of the process.


  • Inner work requires patience and kindness

I learned to be gentle with myself, allowing space for emotions without judgment.


  • Transformation happens beneath the surface

Even when nothing seemed to change outwardly, deep shifts were taking place inside.


  • Boundaries protect growth

Saying no to distractions and external demands created the space I needed to heal.


  • Trusting the timing of life

The astrological cycles reminded me that everything unfolds in its own time, even when it feels slow or uncertain.



Settling in Durham: A Quiet Rebirth


I moved back to the triangle in June. I am now settled in Durham, North Carolina, where I was born but never actually lived. When I lived in NC previously (I was in Raleigh and rarely ventured to Durham). This city feels grounding and destined. With my Goldendoodle, Cosmo, I’ve found a peace I didn’t know I needed. This season feels like a rebirth and a fresh start.


If you're in Durham and want to join intimate monthly study sessions, I’d love to connect. This chapter is about community and depth.



A Special Offer to Support Your Journey


To celebrate this new chapter, I am offering 30% off all 3EZ Gold Readings for the rest of December with the code HOLIDAYGOLD. These readings are designed to provide clear, soulful guidance aligned with your unique astrological cycles.


If you feel called to explore your own inner landscape or need support navigating change, this is a wonderful opportunity to connect.


Zy


 
 
 

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